At times I saw you and felt home,
I stayed away.
At times I saw you and I felt confusion,
As much as I wanted you, I looked inside me and I knew I couldn’t put myself through the sieve of your reckoning.
Or put you through mine.
I knew we were incomplete together.
I feel your soul, I feel my soul,
I know sometimes our beat is in sync
I feel your hunger, I know my cravings
I cherish and crave the unprocessed, blistered, healed and unheard pieces of you
Otherwise we are just sealed lips and nerve currents minimized to our midriff
Like Night into Sunrise and … Sunset into Dusk
I crave us totally in love immersing our glory into one
Nature silencing as the darkness settles upon us
Toes clenched in the sand under a galaxy
Tiding back and forth in a whirlpool of tenderness
Gusting onto shore, Lying there in the grains
Vulnerable, Secure, and Knowingly choosing it again regardless of dry spells, because I know the future doesn’t hold doubt
But I stay away
I know you don’t hold what I crave yet
Baby we are all or nothing at all.